Summary: Forgiving your brother’s murderer may be noble, but falling in love with him borders on betrayal.
When Paige Zukowski enrolls at Granton University in honor of her dead brother, she has no idea fate will land her on the same campus with the very guy who killed him. But Logan Xander isn’t quite the murderer she’s always believed him to be.
A day hasn’t passed since the tragedy that Logan doesn’t wish he could go back and undo everything. It doesn’t take Paige long to realize he’s suffered as much as she has. Forgiving him for ruining her life might not be so impossible after all. But when she actually starts to like him and realizes he likes her in return, their true anguish begins.
Review: This was a heart wrenching but very beautiful written story. I’m asking myself why it took me this long to read this book. It almost made me cry. I was deeply invested with the characters and their story—the tragedy that surrounded them. I very know the feeling they had and how painful and long the journey is to recovery. Sometimes, when things like this happened in life, someone you least expected is the one who will help you to move on.
I didn’t expect to be moved by this book. Although I’m already intrigued by the premise by this girl falling in love with the guy who killed her loved one, her brother. But what I didn’t expect was I became very much into it than expected. It was a complete surprise. Paige suffering was truly understandable. I understand where her hate was coming from. I understand why forgiveness was hard for her to give. I really understand her. And at the same time, unexpectedly so, understand Logan as well. The guilt was eating him alive. He was living but he truly was not. That was until he met the girl who was suffering because of him. Because he took someone she loved. And above all, I completely understand how they met in the middle and fell in love. And this is what I really loved about this novel.
They were broken by the very same situation. At first I thought it was wrong for them to be together; because how can you love someone that caused not only yours but also your loved ones’ suffering. But Logan character was portrayed genuinely that I can’t help sympathizing with his struggles. He didn’t want this to happen to him, to her, and to her and his family. But he owed the repercussion; he tried to live a life no matter how difficult it is. And reading about it, I really (badly, I must say) for him to move on from that tragic past. For him to truly live a life that is worth living. And in order for him to get there, he needed for someone to understand what it is to be him, to be in his position. And I think Paige was the person he was waiting all along.
I almost gave this a full rating but I didn’t like the last part. I think it over stylized the conclusion when it was already harmoniously moving on. But I do know that event served a purpose to both Logan and Paige. It was the last piece of the puzzle that will make their broken spirits somewhat whole again. I really want for the both of them to have new beginning. The tragedy had been anchoring them down way long enough. That doesn’t mean they will forget everything but I think that gave them something—something monumental, me thinks. Anyways, I loved it. Very different and very deep. Really, really enjoyed it.
Preview Quote: “I think subconsciously, you and I both came here, to this college, for exactly the same reason. To start over fresh. But if not attending those grief group meetings prevents you from doing that, if it keeps you from your own healing process, I won’t be able to move on quite so well either. I like helping people, and if I do something that purposely blocks you from being helped, it’s going to bother me. ” — Paige