I was going to name this post, ‘reassessing your brand’ but it sounded so professional and this was anything but. But I was doing some deep pondering for the last few weeks about the direction of this blog.
I think I’m feeling a bit of falling off with book blogging. This is far worse than me being a little bit behind on reading. In my almost five years of book blogging, I never thought I’ll be less enthusiastic to blog. But the atmosphere of the blogosphere before was quite different from what it is now. There are so many blogs out there; I’m just this teeny tiny voice who offers nothing new. Nothing refreshing. Nothing innovative.
But when I began this shindig, it was solely about me putting down my thoughts on books I read and nothing more. Sometimes I wish I remained stagnant to my ideal, and real purpose on why I blog because it was simple and easy to conform. But I also sought maturity because I do want to see improvement in me, whether it’s on my writing or my taste in books.
I never desired popularity but I don’t want to be another face in the crowd as well. I don’t easily succumb to trends. I don’t want to be follower yet I never liked to stand out either. I feel so conflicted because I’m really, really uncomfortable with strangers that’s why I’m satisfied with what I have right now. But it’s not what I want anymore. It felt everyone’s doing something similar and since everyone’s doing that, opting myself out will not leave any dent anyway and with that I made myself rethink lots of things.
I want change. I yearn for it. I want to be more than what I am now but still true to myself and what I am comfortable with. It’s not about being unique but real representation of the things I like. And with that I’m sorting things out, planning stuff and eventually execute these wild ideas in my head. I need it unanimous. I crave harmony. I want to see this in reality soon.
Now, I just need enough time to implement this! (but first, catching up with Kono Oto Tomare!)